As of late, paranoia has severely impacted my blog activities. Well, enough is enough. Here is a sampling of what has been going on since my last post:

1: Divorce.

I got served with divorce papers. This did not really come as a surprise. Several seemingly conflicting emotions were brought up by this. Relief. My ex saved me the legwork of doing it myself. Hurt. She really IS over me, and any remnant of the love we had is now gone. Sadness. I lost the relationship of a lifetime. Excitement. I can start moving forward with things now. Regret. Had I done X Y or Z differently would it still have to end this way? And so on….

While the divorce summons was not a surprise, the emotions attached to it were quite unexpected. We have been separated for over a year now. I thought I was completely over her. In a way I am, in a way I am not.

Two specific scenarios keep playing out in my head, one real, and one that was a dream. I keep thinking back to our wedding day, in the courthouse, when I said “I Do” and she said “Heck Yeah.” Certainly a happy memory. Then I think to a dream I had. I dreamed someone was saying to me “A marriage that begins in a house of God ends in a house of God, but a marriage that begins in a courtroom ends in a courtroom.” Pretty creepy imho.

2: School.

I enrolled in school.  This is both a frightening and exciting prospect.  Nuff said on that point.

3. Job.

I found one.  It is only temp and part time, but it is very very easy work.  A good thing for now, certainly not something for the long haul.

Thank you for reading this post, and have a great day.  : )